Qadeem Zieman is a Malaysian model, singer, writer and poet, whose personal life is undeniably troubled, releases his inner strength through tearfully writing poems describing the painful, confusing life of his while cherishing the ones who help him through the poverty he's lived through and paying a tribute to those whom he had been romantically linked with. His world took a turbulent turn as his mother passed away on his 18th birthday in 2021 due to hypertension and multiple organ failures after surviving two strokes and Parkinson's disease, resulting from a despairing misfortune that took place in 2018. All alone with everyone around him, yet with no one by his side, fate nearly drowned him in a fistful of pills in his sleep while living in Bayan Lepas, Pulau Pinang (Penang), as he became depressed with his new life as a poor homeless orphan while constantly being ditched and pushed aside by his family members as he sails through oceans of never-ending troubled waters. This book is a diary of a compiled anecdote that tells a story of his short yet challenging colourful life embossed with doubts and decorated with more love, pain, and suffering in a tearfully written collection of poems in English and Bahasa Melayu.